Olga Dementieva, Belgium
I was still in Russia, when I came across Sahaja Yoga. Me and my mother went to spend a holiday in a beautiful resort city in the Nothern Caucases, Piatigorsk. My mother, who had been practising Sahaja Yoga for one year than, suggested to go once to a programme of Sahaja Yoga, that took place in the neighbouring city Jzelieznovodsk. That was the place where she had learnt about Sahaja Yoga one year before the event I’m writing about.As I was interested in all kinds of spiritual teachings, I agreed with pleasure.
So we went. Sergey, who was leading the programme, thought that my mother had already explained everything about Sahaja Yoga to me, so we had a meditation, and then we sang some bhajans – we did everything the way as if I was aware of what I was doing. But I just wasn’t! Sergey asked me at the end of the programme how I felt. I felt very good! My whole being was filled with joy and contentment.
Soon we had to leave for Tambov. There were no sahaja yogis in Tambov at that moment, except for my mother and my sister. They went on practicing Sahaja Yoga, while I completely let it out of my attention.
Once I went to see my friends at their place. Since they were having a drink,I was served a glass of an alcoholic drink I used to like. To my greatest surprise, this time I didn’t like neither the smell, nor the taste of the drink. More over, I was so disgusted, that I couldn’t finish the glass. That was the last time I’ve drunk alcohol. That happend in November 1994 ,more than seven years ago. At that moment I didn’t see the connection between my Selfrealization and being disgusted by alcohol. But little later I met many other sahaja yogis, who had similar experiences. It is known in Sahaja Yoga, that after one gets his Selfrealization, one’s destructive habits (drugs, alcohol, smoking, etc…) fall off.
That was just a small example of how much my life has changed for the better after I started practising Sahaja Yoga. The other positive changes are:
1. My health has improved. Unpleasant chronical diseases,like cistites,disappeared. More over, I’ve learnt to work on my subtle centres in such a way, that deseases don’t get much chance to appear
2. I don’t have to look for the cause of what happens to me in the outside world, but rather try and introspect myself.I’m not reluctant to admit my mistakes,but try to correct them
3. Many destructive qualities, like anger, letargy, lack of selfesteem, deminished
4. My attention has become sharper, thahks to which my ability to learn improved
5. I’ve learnt to controll myself in all kinds of stressfull situations
6. Sahaja Yoga meditations brought a new dimention into my life, which is hard to express with words, but which I wish to everyone of you to experience !
|I am writing this for people who, like me, tried to commit suicide and kept after that the desire to start again. I have read that this desire often remains for those who tried once.|
After my attempt I was sent on holiday, then to a therapist, then on a yoga course with a 'yoga specialist', all kinds of things to make me forget and get the taste for life back. But I did not.
Until I got my Realization: I knew that this was worth living for. At first I felt for a while a pain on my left heart and had to ask forgiveness to my Spirit for trying to extinguish the life given to me by God. The black ideas receded little by little, and it took a few years for them to disappear completely. But soon after Realization I decided I would not try again.
So I owe my life to Shri Mataji and Sahaja Yoga: without them I would be only a skeleton since ages! Depressive thoughts enter my mind once in a while but never like before. The insidious cancer of suicidal desires has completely gone.
I am sure that some of you reading this have had such thoughts: believe me, Sahaja Yoga works!
E., 49 years old